Wellington:Troubled all-rounder Jesse Ryder on Sunday said that he feared for his career when the New Zealand Cricket Board was looking into the charges of his recent off-field incident involving alcohol.
Ryder, who turned 26 on Friday, admitted on Saturday that his drunk and noisy behaviour drew complaints from guests at a hotel where he was staying during an indoor cricket tournament.
"It went on for quite a while as New Zealand Cricket was investigating what actually happened. I was actually thinking that this could have been it for me. But luckily they've given me one last chance," Ryder told Sunday News.
Ryder's behaviour had disappointed the NZC bosses and they had actually contemplated to rip up his recent offer for a central contract.
However, they decided to give him a last chance because of his attitude in recent months and also because he didn't try to cover it up.
But if Ryder is found guilty in yet another off-field incident involving alcohol, NZC won't be in too minds in ripping up his contract.
"The simple answer is that if the same thing happened again in the same circumstances, then yes (his contract would be ripped up). Circumstances, I would say, have to be considered but if something similar happened again, Jesse knows the consequences," Board's General Manager of Cricket Geoff Allott said.
"He has got some extra parameters outside the other 19 contracted players and he's accepted that. There's some clarity now around instances, particularly involving alcohol and that's important," he added.
Ryder had been involved in a series of disciplinary issues early in his career but the latest incident may well be a wake-up call for him.
"I think this is probably a good thing for me. Now I know that I have to keep my head down, keep training hard and force my way back in the side. This is pretty much a wakeup call for me," Ryder said.
"I just have to stay home now and try and stay away from all the off-field distractions so I don't get in trouble out in public. It can be hard at times but if I want to be a Black Cap, it's something that has to be done," he added.
Ryder, who was not considered for the tour to Sri Lanka due to an elbow injury, also promised to stay focused. "I'm pretty desperate to stay on the right track and be a Black Cap. Look, it's not going to be easy. It was never going to be easy but it's just something I have got to do," said Ryder.